May 8, 2009And another long day. Long couple of days. Heck, it's been a long long week.
Long story short: Gramma and Laurie have been here since Tuesday night and Jimmy has been sick most of it. He'll start to feel better, but then it all comes back and starts again and he's sick. He feels really bad right now because he feels like he's destroyed Gramma and Laurie's vacation, but they're still doing things because we're making them. No one is upset with him, obviously, but he's upset with himself and I don't know how to fix that. I also don't know how to make him not sick, which I HATE.
I do NOT like being helpless.
Long story short: Gramma and Laurie have been here since Tuesday night and Jimmy has been sick most of it. He'll start to feel better, but then it all comes back and starts again and he's sick. He feels really bad right now because he feels like he's destroyed Gramma and Laurie's vacation, but they're still doing things because we're making them. No one is upset with him, obviously, but he's upset with himself and I don't know how to fix that. I also don't know how to make him not sick, which I HATE.
I do NOT like being helpless.
Lil Miss and Gramma -- all dressed up!Lil Miss is officially the best baby ever. She spent most of the day in her car seat (I feel SO bad about that -- we were going to Theater of the Sea (hour and a half to two hour drive), Daddy got sick so we turned around when we got there and headed back, dropping him at the hospital in Marathon (hour and a half to two hours back), Mommy had to go pick up documents from work so I could work on them tonight (about thirty minutes in the car total) and then she and I went to pick him up when they released him (an hour each way). So all in all be spent eight to nine hours in her car seat in the car today. I feel like a horrible Mommy for that. )c: ) and she was so good the whole time! At one point, Gramma actually said she almost forgot the baby was even in the backseat because she was so quiet.
She is the best baby ever and we are incredibly spoiled. I joked today that I think she just wants a sibling, so she's being good so we won't swear off babies. (c: (But no -- no siblings any time soon).
She is the best baby ever and we are incredibly spoiled. I joked today that I think she just wants a sibling, so she's being good so we won't swear off babies. (c: (But no -- no siblings any time soon).
Sleeping in her carseat during the long road trip.I realized something last night that I hadn't really realized. It makes me incredibly anxious to be away from her. I don't like it. Even if I'm in our room and she's out in the living room with Daddy instead of in her bassinet next to me, I don't like it. It makes me anxious and upset. I want her with ME. I don't like leaving her or putting her down and I'm uncomfortable letting or asking other people to take care of her or help. Yes, it's making me tired. Yes, it's somewhat stressing me out. But I can't help it. It makes me so anxious I want to cry.
Seriously -- last night I was tired and stressed out to the point that I was about to cry and Jimmy wanted me to give her to Gramma and Laurie to hold for awhile while I tried to sleep and all I could think was "don't take my baby -- just don't take her. I want her here". She makes me feel better and not having her makes me feel worse.
Is this normal? It makes me feel slightly crazy!
(Sorry this is kinda short -- it's late, been a long week, I'm tired. I think I'm going to bed now.)
Seriously -- last night I was tired and stressed out to the point that I was about to cry and Jimmy wanted me to give her to Gramma and Laurie to hold for awhile while I tried to sleep and all I could think was "don't take my baby -- just don't take her. I want her here". She makes me feel better and not having her makes me feel worse.
Is this normal? It makes me feel slightly crazy!
(Sorry this is kinda short -- it's late, been a long week, I'm tired. I think I'm going to bed now.)
It's perfectly normal. The only way to get over it is to do it. Let her grandmother have a turn! You'd better let me when I come!!
ReplyDeleteI hope Jim is better.
Happy Mother's Day!
Love,
Mom
I DO let Gramma have a turn. I just wanted to be in the room with them too -- I'm still trying to get used to her being with someone in another room.
ReplyDeleteBut I guess I'll have to.
Happy Mothers Day!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHope your day has been nice. I enjoy your posts so much and look forward to them. Angelynn is so precious and she does sound like a really good baby. You sound like a GOOD mother too. Keep it up and with time you will learn to share her with others. It is very normal to always want to be where she is.
Just try taking a break once in a while if someone is there to keep her. You may like it.
She knows who her Mommy is and that is what is important.
Sure hope Jim is feeling better.
Love to all of you,
Grandma Peggy
Normal, yes. Especially since she is your "first" and given the other aspects of that. Even though Makayla is the second if someone comes up and/or is holding her I'm like hey, that's my baby, give her to me. But, like stated above, you have to do it. And want to know the best part . . . YOU are her mommy and nobody else and trust me she knows that. So when someone else takes her, let me tell you how great it is when all she wants is her mommy and when she comes back to you she will just be all lovey dovey. Promise! : ) M
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